After making a brave and bold mutual decision last Friday to move onto pastures new, I have embraced today’s Blue Monday with gusto. Although social media has been awash with various articles on this particular topic, I have to say that other than the New Order’s 1980s hit Blue Monday, I’d never encountered this phrase before.
So what exactly have I been up to? Housework and laundry, taking my pooch Oscar for a brisk walk, and I have to say, that the walks are becoming easier. Afterwards, I headed into the town centre, for a guilt free window shop, a bite to eat and a cup of coffee. After picking up some groceries for this evening’s meal, I bumped into my former drum tutor, who was surprised to see me in town during that particular time of day. We had a chat for about 5 minutes or so, and it was really good to see him. I resisted the urge to accompany him around the shop he was heading into, and thus resisted the urge to buy more stationery, and cheerful but cheap artwork. He has always encouraged me to keep playing the drums, despite the lack of confidence I’ve suffered over the last year or so. And in the coming days and weeks, I will have time on my hands, and I can practice to my heart’s content. Providing Oscar doesn’t try to eat my bass pedal. Or snare. Or floor tom. Or drum sticks.
My next career move as yet, is undecided. However, there are a few volunteer opportunities that I’m hoping to explore. And I am looking forward to handing in my homework for my Creative Writing class on Wednesday and also have a better idea how to approach my next assignment for my OU course, which is due in the next few weeks, having attended the latest tutorial on Saturday. I’ve always said that we are masters of our destiny, and that only we can change our circumstances, and sometimes that means taking calculated risks. After the few goodbyes that I did manage to say, through my tears, the tears stopped on Friday night, and after breaking the news to close friends and my parents, I know I’ve made the right decision long-term. So, I am looking forward to each and every day, filled with possibilities. And for the first time in a long time, I am happy.