Well, I am not going to shy away from it, it has been one long emotional roller-coaster for the delectable Mr. B and I since I had to self-isolate for Covid-19. With adjustments made to my Bipolar medication, my hormones have been through the roof. In particular my prolactin levels. My music is helping me to keep chilled; no surprises there. I am rather enjoying the celebrity videos on Facebook watch; as they are so entertaining and giving me a much needed morale boost. And, it’s not just Frank Turner this time round.
I have managed in some ways not to spend a fortune on takeaways since being on lockdown, however, I have spent an awful lot on clothes from Yours Clothing; and a hoodie from Teespring.com; and a Bon Jovi hoodie – supporting his philanthropy efforts in New Jersey. I have been crowdfunding to help keep music venues stay open – small amounts. I have treated myself to the DI Tom Thorne prequel by Mark Billingham which is released later on this summer – Cry Baby. Oh and a Be More Kind print by KingsRoad; the folks behind the merchandise for Frank Turner, which will be shipped later on in June. In a way, I have adhered to the advice given in Sarah Knight’s Get Your Sh!t Together; in other ways I haven’t. Fortunately unfortunately, impulse buys are part and parcel of being Bipolar. But you know me, I don’t like such words to define me, as everyone goes shopping and most just call it retail therapy.
On a more serious note, we are approaching the end of Mental Health Awareness week; #kindness. So, I was even kinder to myself and treated me to a FutureLearn course with The Open University. Which I am about to go and start in a jiffy.
And that tiddlypeeps, is all for now xxx
Carrie Mathison – she tells it like it is for high-functioning Bipolar people the world over. Because she and actress Claire Danes and I have led similar lives since she and Jared Leto starred in My-So-Called-Life during my own college years between 1994-1996. She inspired me to be just like her. I chopped off my long brown hair; and started wearing checked shirts and dyed my hair red up until the day I turned 30 and then I decided to go back to my natural brunette roots.
I won’t go down the whole dystopian story of my own life; as Homeland has told it for me. This goes out to the fantastic support network of NHS staff that I have had around me since 1996 and also my own teachers and professors that have supported me in my continuing education ever since and enabled me to get on my career ladder when my world fell apart when I was 18. I have always sought my own counselling; and I owe so much to those who have patiently listened over the years and have helped me to unravel the broken links that we all suffer from. I was able to gradually able to put my life back together piece-by-piece like Lego bricks and re-invent myself and rebuild my trust in people. Because at the end of the day; you are your number one priority and no-one else.
This goes out to all the Russian Gulag male friends that I have made throughout my life. But a certain special someone who is working so hard through his degree to make this world a better place – not just for me; but for everyone he meets. I have known him for five years now; and I don’t need to mention his name; as he knows exactly who he is.
Take care tiddlypeeps xxxx